Act III ~ Confronting The Wetikó

Episode Scorpio

How NAME! “Chose” ME, Part II ~ Back…To Reality!

…April 4th, 2013…

…as I exited the hotel, after meeting Dr. Diamandis, I immediately came fully back into the present moment and the “force” of my reality began to surge through me…my pace quickened and I reflexively reached into my pocket to grab my phone.

I mentioned in Episode Tripp, that he is the man that is most directly responsible for me “choosing” to be on this spiritual path…therefore, I called 12 Star Cancer/Leo74 first…to give him the credit for “my” success…that, in my opinion, he deserved!

Mephistopheles is not your NAME!,
But I know what you’re up to just the same.
I will listen hard to your tuition,
And you will see it come to it’s fruition.
–Sting–

Picking up his phone to hear me basically screaming incoherently at him in excitement, he was understandably confused.

But aware I was attempting to meet Diamandis, he asked what happened and was equally amazed, as I recounted the story to him.

But, as usual, he graciously redirected my praise of him and suggested that he didn’t do anything…that I was the one doing this…

You must accept responsibility for your actions, but not the credit for your achievements.
–Denis Waitley–

Next were calls to both of my parents and then Saggitarius73, as I was driving home.  Each of them was surprised, elated, and fascinated at my success and showered me with praise and congratulations…

Yes..I FELT good…VERY GOOD…as I sat down at my computer to compose the e-mail/cover letter to my new contact at SU…with a cc to Dr. Diamandis of course!

I worked diligently, for about an hour or so, on those all-important paragraphs…carefully crafting my words to walk the balance between presenting myself as professional and passionate…as I had with Dr. Diamandis, in person, once I’d collected myself from floundering at first, of course!

I also re-touched-up my resume, to…again…be sure it was the best version of myself that I was presenting…at present!  FEELING supremely confident, I clicked the “send” button!

However!  Not more than 10 seconds after sending the e-mail, I received an auto-response e-mail, stating that she would be out of the country until April, 14th…so I accepted that it might be a few weeks before I heard anything from SU.

In the meantime, Saggitarius73 read my mind (Big surprise!) and called to suggest that we go out to celebrate!

So, we agreed to meet at Fast Eddie’s Pool Hall, near my home, a little later that evening.

My good friend from grad school, Cancer68, joined us as well and I walked her in from the parking lot, to find Saggitarius73 at a table near the bar…drink already in hand.

I left her with him and walked…more floated really (My bliss overflowing as it was)…to the bar for drinks…

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Soooooooo…my reflection, later, was that…considering my INCREDIBLY energetic “state” after the events of day…barely keeping myself within my bodily “container” (To borrow a concept from Paul Levy)…I ACTED the way that I did that night, because I was FEELING so much Love from God…

Not so much logically thinking about what I was doing…as much as I was, unintentionally, being guided by FEELING into my intuition…not my mind…not my ego, per se…not much anyway…

…and, as a result, it seemed that I was only able to FEEL as happy as the LEAST happy person in the room!

Breaking it down for myself later…I think the logic behind it, is that if someone else “FELT” less “happy” than I perceived myself to be…I would then FEEL compassion and empathy for them and want to bring them “up” to where I was “soaring!”  I felt guided to share this incredible FEELING with them!

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I won’t use her LEGAL NAME! or the nickNAME!…by which most people know her…here…

But let’s just say that my first impression of the bartender…was that her attitude was “crappy”…VERY Crappy! (Which…it turned out…was, phonetically, quite similar to her…aforementioned…nickNAME! Wink wink!) 😉

In her defense, I was so frickin’ happy that I probably looked like I was really drunk or high or something other than what I “mentally” was, when I approached the bar.

I jovially said hello and put my hand out…she scowled and half-heartedly extended hers, “What can I get you?”

I took that energy and redirected it right back at her, “How about a smile on that beautiful face?”

Not to “hit on” her…but just to be, what I perceive myself to be…my “normal” wacky/silly self!  Either way…the reaction was CLEAR!

She…she really didn’t smile…it was more of a twitch that said, to me, that I had better quit while I was ahead. So, my expression changed to “serious,” as I stopped leaning into the bar and ordered the drinks.

Back with my friends, I immediately commented on my experience with Crappy and Sagittarius73 confirmed a similar rejection of his considerable charm, minutes earlier!

With that new info, I FELT inspired into action!

Re-approaching the bar, I politely…and soberly…”tried” again, “I’m sorry, I think we got off on the wrong foot, what’s your NAME!?”

She replied with her “Crappy“ nickNAME!…which, as I mentioned, was ironically appropriate for her demeanor…and I felt stonewalled again, but continued, “I’m Sagittarius74 and I am totally sober right now, even though I probably looked drunk a minute ago.”

She nodded, but her scowl did not budge. “I’ve had one of the most AMAZING days of my life, meeting a personal hero of mine, and I am just looking to celebrate with my good friends over there.”, nodding to them, as they raised their glasses to her, in support of me.

She still did not react and asked, “Is there something else I can get you?”

I sighed and asked for a pool table, accepting defeat…for the moment…

Walking back to my friends, I remember thinking to myself…in shock…”I suppose I can’t charm EVERYONE!”

There is a charm about the forbidden that makes it unspeakably desirable.
–Mark Twain–

We began to relax and play some pool, while I relayed my “Diamandis In The Rough” story to Cancer68 for the first time.

She was loving it and Sagittarius73 was feeding off the energy, adding hilarious witticisms and whimsical jabs…as he does.

We were happily in the flow of the present moment…all of us together…it is a beautiful memory for me.

However, after walking back up to the bar for a refill and striking out for a third time with “Crappy,” I asked the roaming waitress why the bartender was so unhappy.

She replied that it wasn’t a “happiness issue,” it was just that that was how she ALWAYS was.

I laughed…assuming she was exaggerating and replied, “Ok, but seriously…she can’t always seem so unhappy…doesn’t she ever smile?”

The waitress sternly shook her head and kinda laughingly said, “No…never!  Really…its just her way.”, confirming with another waitress who was passing by, “Does ‘Crappy’ ever smile?”

“No! Never!”, said the other…with a knowing smile.

My waitress said, “We would all be grateful if someone could get her to smile.”

Those were the words that re-energized me…besides the fact that I continued to FEEL “negatively affected” by her Wetikó-ensnared energy, from all the way across the pool hall…some 60 feet away, at least.

So my mind began to churn again, as to how I might crack this particularly challenging “Wetikó-riddle.”

Always go with your passions. Never ask yourself if it’s realistic or not.
–Deepak Chopra–

We’d been “best” friends for over 30 years and, both being Sagittarians, we seem to think alike…often arriving at thoughts synchronously…

…so it was not a surprise when we looked at each other smiling, as we simultaneously detected the off-key singing of the karaoke performance on the other side of the bar…

It wasn’t until that moment, that I became aware karaoke was even happening that night.

Much to Cancer68’s amusement, Sagittarius73 and I both smiled mischievously as we began to sing and dance…”off-key” in both cases…to the familiar 80‘s song being “butchered” across the bar, by the person on the microphone…

We had a good laugh…but seconds later I had my solution!

Music…music…MUSIC!!!

OF COURSE!!!

Life is very short, and there’s no time
For fussing and fighting, my friend
I have always thought that it’s a crime
So I will ask you once again.
–John Lennon–

Approaching the bar again, I explained to Crappy that I just wanted to give it one more attempt…that I was feeling her energy from across the entire pool hall and meow felt convicted that I was going to change that!

She actually smiled a little at that and said, “Look I’m fine…its not personal or anything…I’m just kind-of the den mother around here and we have to deal with a lot of drunk people who are very rude and thoughtless. I appreciate your efforts though. Is there something else I can get you?”

I smiled wider with that additional information…saying, “I totally appreciate that!  In fact, it only confirms that my solution to this situation is very appropriate! If you are the den mother, then all the more reason to show you additional respect and appreciation for taking care of all these wonderful people!  So, I would like to serenade you.”

I caught her off-guard with that!

She replied that it wasn’t necessary, but thanked me.  Undeterred, I asked her to think of the song she wanted me to sing, while I waited my turn, and that I would come ask her once I was called.

Law 14 – Patience is a virtue, but persistence to the point of success is a blessing.
-Dr. Peter Diamandis-

She smiled and agreed…asking me what she had to “work with.”  I told her to please be gentle, but that I felt pretty comfortable with Elton John or Billy Joel…or something along those lines.

She raised her eyebrows and gave me her first REAL smile and said, “Ooohhhh?!?! It’s like THAT, is it?”

I smiled and nodded, as I walked back to the pool table.

After ~20 minutes, my NAME! was called and I confidently strolled up to the bar, as my two great and VERY understanding friends found a table near the microphone to watch my performance.

She gave me Elton John’s, “Crocodile Rock,” and I smiled excitedly…having listened to that song countless times throughout my life!

I LOVE that song!

Its SO fun…upbeat…infectiously easy to dance and bop around!

Go ahead…treat yourself to 3 minutes and 53 seconds of PURE FUN!!!

However, I had temporarily forgotten that humility was part of the day’s lessons, and…sooooooo…I was going to learn that I did NOT know the lyrics as well as I thought I did!

AND!!!  That singing “Crocodile Rock” karaoke is actually very challenging…because being a fast-paced song…the lyrics move off the screen VERY quickly!

You will never be given time to prepare yourself to face a challenge.  You have to act spontaneously…you must develop your intuition…to match the need.
–Yogi Bhajan–

But…feeling the moment and channeling all of my silliness…I started to make up my own “filler-lyrics”…substituting “Crappy” in place of “Suzie’s” NAME! and even going so far as to reach dangerously into my “high” range and break apart/incorporate her nickNAME! into the falsetto “La…la la la la la…la la la la la…la la la la la” portion of the bridge. (“Craaaa…cra cra craaa-ppy…cra cra craaaa-ppy…cra cra craaaa -ppy!!!“…like that.)

What followed was MIRACLE-like!

As soon as I started to flounder and miss lyrics, at the beginning, I could see that she couldn’t help herself…it was making her laugh and smile a bit!  But more from the “shaking-of-the-head,” dismissive type of smiling and laughing.  Like, “This guy is SUCH a joke!“-type of laughing, ya FEEL me? 😉

All of her waitresses, though, were beginning to surround her and watch…as well…quite stupefied and exchanging semi-horrified but fully amazed looks with one another…

They really hadn’t ever seen this woman have fun before…amazing!

But…when I started my “falsetto fusing” of her nickNAME! into the bridge of the song…in my cracking voice…

Her seemingly impenetrable…seemingly solid…seemingly CONCRETE dam…that so effectively had “held back” her emotional energy…up until this point…

…SPECTACULARLY EXPLODED!!!

She completely “LOST HER MIND!!!”  You know the way that ONLY women can pull it off…as they dance and scream…when they are REALLY happy and having fun?!?!?

“Happy Crappy” started screaming and clapping…her arms over her head…dancing with her waitresses!

If you REALLY don’t know what I mean…here’s an instructional video for how to proceed with your own version of this type of “exuberant dancing!” 😛

My friends started laughing and watching the scene…as did many others around the bar…it was TOTALLY AWESOME!!!

Sensing the energy of the moment…Sagittarius73 captured the picture above, of me on the mic during “Croc Rock,” using his phone. (Did I mention that I Love this man?)

After spending a few moments accepting significant thanks and praise from No-Longer-Crappy and her staff, I sat down with my friends…resigned to stop asking them to “wait a second…I’ll be right back.”  Sagittarius73, having a newborn at home, left after only a few more minutes.

I was basking in the FEELINGS of bliss…after experiencing, what I perceived to be, my SECOND miracle of the day…

Resultingly, continuing to “feel like singing,” I asked Cancer68 what she’d like me to sing for her.  She scanned the book and came back with The B-52’s, “Love Shack.”  I was, again, happy because I also Love THAT song…always have.  I quickly went back up and “signed up” for another song.  After another 20 minutes, I was called up again.

Unknowingly submitting to The Wetikó’s influence…once I learned that I only had one more opportunity to sing before the karaoke ended for the night…I made the “ego-based” karmic choice to jog back over and ask Cancer68, “Do you mind if I sing a different song, since they are closing?”

She graciously agreed and I walked up to the DJ, to tell him my choice.

As I approached the microphone, I took a quick moment to intentionally summon all that I had inside me, to merge the positive energy and power I felt in the multiple, miraculous manifestations of the day.

I wanted to transmute the all of this amazing, Divine Love that I was feeling and manifest it into an EMP(Electro-Magnetic Pulse)-explosion of praise and thanks to God.

I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
No I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
(And this is the part where you REALLY have to SCREAM IT!!!)  OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH!!!!

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–Foo Fighters, “Best of You”–

And I’m pretty sure that’s where it happened in the song…

I was screaming all of the lyrics…of course…so loud, and with so much force, that I had already blown out my voice before it happened…

…but when I got to that long…INTENSELY SCREAMED…”OOOOOOHHHHH!!!!!” part of the song…after the second chorus…I re-injured my back…AGAIN!!!

(The…back story(pun intended)…on my back injury is coming in Part III…patience, please!)

However!  When it happened…it didn’t FEEL like my “normal” re-injury FEELING…it was VERY subtle…

…but I FOR SURE felt it when it happened and even faltered slightly in my singing…in that particular moment…

…not that anyone laboring to listen would have known…because my performance was SO, unintentionally, TERRIBLE…especially in comparison to my earlier success!

The thing is…in my “humble” opinion…there is only ONE way to sing that song…SCREAMING IT AS LOUD AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN!!!

If you cannot sing it like Dave sings it…just…do not even attempt to sing it!

Especially if you are living in TEXAS at the time!

Go BIG…or GO HOME!!!

So I did…and I FEEL that I was “supposed” to do so…that I may learn…and grow…

“Scream…resist…my precious morsel…you will see who wins this battle!”, I imagine it taunting me, as The Wetikó’s smile melted into an erotic moan of ecstasy…in that moment of my re-injury…as It absorbed that most powerful and directly misunderstood “unintentional offering” of my “Spiritual energy.”

Finishing the song, I came back to the table and Cancer68 asked if I was “ok,” since I was breathing laboriously and couldn’t speak…

…my voice was horse…completely gone…in three minutes! (Being an “exuberant-type”…in general…I’ve lost my voice several times in my life.  But never that quickly!)

I reassured her…in my whispery, cracklie voice…that that “performance” was just something that “I needed to do for myself,” after this day of days.

She smiled knowingly…we’d been friends long enough for her to know that I’m…

…”a bit different.”

We finished our drinks, I said good night to No-Longer-Crappy and my other new friends at Fast Eddie’s, and hugged Cancer68 goodbye at her car.

Arriving home…I “crashed” into my bed…HARD…after one of the most amazing days of my life!

But it was just the FIRST day of that fate-filled week in April of 2013…

…and, unknowingly…

…in “choosing” that Foo Fighters song…

…and placing the intention and orientation of maximum effort to manifest a display of LOVE FOR GOD…

…in the particular way that I did before beginning the song…

…I had just directly challenged The Wetikó to “step things up”…

Oftentimes when a person is on their way to stepping into and connecting with their authentic selves, speaking their true voice, seemingly darker forces manifest trying to stop them.
–Paul Levy–

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P.S. ~ Synchrony With Intention ~ Energetic Alignment

Synchronicity is an ever-present reality for those who have eyes to see it.

–Carl Jung–

Today is April 7th, 2020.  On the Mayan Tzolk’in calendar, today is 3 Seed.

As you may remember from the beginning of Part I of this story, within Episode Taurus, I explained that the day I met Dr. Diamandis, April 4th, 2013, was 4 Seed.

As you may already know, the Tzolk’in is a 260-day, never-ending “energetic tracking system,” spiraling through time.  You can learn more about it here, if you wish!

One aspect of “Seed” energy, among many, has to do with the abundance of potential that is inherent within all seeds…BEFORE they germiante…

Why NAME! is who NAME! is…to me…has A LOT to do with this concept of “potential abundance within,” that is flowing through the Seed archtypal energy.

Sooooo…looking back on it, 7 years later meow…

The fact that I was feeling guided to go on an adventure that literally began to shift my physical reality (Taurus/Fixed Earth), by meeting Dr. Diamandis, on a Seed day…feels like Divine Synchrony With Intention to me…confirming…reinforcing…concretizing my new version of reality…that I had no idea I was stepping into at the time!

Further affirming my perspective…it was also a “4” day on the Tzolk’in…among other things…4 is about stabilty within the physical “Earth” realm.  Solid…trustworthy…ground to stand upon…firm foundations…metaphorically and literally speaking!

Seven-years-worth of 260-day cycles…flowing in-between then and meow…and yet…synchronously…here we are again…today…with the same Sun Sign “Seed!”

I can assure you…ZERO planning went into that alignment ahead of time.  Indeed…it wasn’t until only a couple weeks ago, that I even discerned that THIS week would be the time I would be adding these pieces of the story to the website!

Even after I published Part I, a few days ago, I still did not know I would be publishing this piece today.  I didn’t fully decide that until yesterday, as a matter of fact!

All I knew…the other day…was that Part I was gonna be on April 4th…because that’s the day I met Diamandis.

I then realized that the final part of the story would be published on April 11th, 2020…since that’s when the week “ended” back in 2013.  I hadn’t yet discerned the “release dates” for Part II and the forthcoming Part III…which will be added in two days time, fyi, on 5 Transformer! 😉

What is mind-expanding for me…is that it FEELS like the appropriate day for me to share this particular…emotional…aspect of the story.

It was a energetic seed that I was unconsciously “planting” into my reality, through my choice to attempt the meeting with Diamandis…

Thus, only meow in this moment…all these years later…can I “clearly see” and truly FEEL…that that moment of “re-injury” was also a moment of germination!

THAT energetic explosion of Love For God…THAT was the moment in which the Seed of NAME! cracked open!

What came after that…changed ME…forever!

The Elders always say that what we heal in our self, is our own Special Gift of Healing to the Whole.

–9 Eagle “Jaguar Woman” Debra Malmos–

Next Piece:  Episode Aquarius ~ How NAME! “Chose” ME!, Part III ~ Letting Go Of “My” Mind!

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